This is a documentation of broken thoughts and memories conceived while battling mental illness and alcoholism. Revealing, personal and poignant, the writings describe a story of disparity in hopes putting an end to his inner torment one way or the other. This is a raw account of events that lead to the author's life saving decision to stop drinking alcohol. This is an inside view of a disturbed mind. This is a must read for caregivers and loved ones of individuals living with similar conditions